Summer Days

YAY for summer!!!! I am loving summer even if I am taking classes this year. I just had the best weekend I've had in a while. And I will tell you why as I am assuming since you are reading my blog that you want to know something about my life.

Friday night I went out with the girls to the bars. We started at a local bar that I was told I had to go to when I first moved here almost a year ago. This bar was a very short trip as their was a water main break limiting the drink choices. So we left after one drink. We then went downtown to this awesome bar that sells beer like it is on the stock market. The price goes up and down depending on what is being bought. As I don't drink beer, I got my usual. While there my friend S and I got hit on by "kissing gay cousins." It was a lot of fun, yet creepy at the same time. I was told I was voluptuous and sexy. I think my new red lipstick helped me reach this as well as feeling confident.

Saturday I then went to the beach with classmates. We relaxed, tanned, and chatted. The water was only 45 degrees, so no swimming. I got a nice burn on my back while tanning. We then walked around the downtown area of the town we were in. We got delicious healthy flatbreads at a restaurant and got yummy ice cream.

Overall it was a great weekend, even if it was not very productive.

Last night I found this awesome blog that I think you should all read, no matter what you look like. It is awesome and the post that this link takes you to is very inspirational. It inspired me and many friends.
http://www.themilitantbaker.com/2013/03/things-no-one-will-tell-fat-girls-so-i.html?spref=fb&m=1

Have a great day!!!!

Back to Class and The Sound "ear"

Summer classes...this is my first time ever taking summer classes. Luckily it is also the last time I will be taking summer classes. I have officially been back to school for a week and start clinic later today. I officially have my first homework assignment due tomorrow, and projects already explained and due in a few weeks. 8 weeks is a very short time for classes and clinic. I'm almost 25% done with the semester...weird. 

I have super planned for one of my clients, including a paragraph from their last clinician. I spent last night, with the help of a friend, coming up with words with the sound "ear" or /ir/ in them. When you are limited by not being ably to use other types of /r/ sounds and of the sound /l/, a lot of words can be cut from the list. Like clear or leer. But if you need a good list of these words here they are. The first half will be words you can pair pictures with, and the last half would be more difficult for pictures or for young children. I also spent the evening putting them in sentences without the other /r/ sounds or the /l/ sound (that was hard). 

 Beard,  Ear, Deer, Tear, Steer, Pier,  Gear, Ear muffs,  Earphones, Pyramid, Cheer, Fear, Mere, Near,  Hear, Smear(ed),  Earache, Shear, Sneer, Year, We’re, Tier, Veer, Sear, Period, and Rear. 

So I also thought I would give you an update on my guy problems as I usually end up talking about guys anyways. I am currently at a standstill with B. No idea where it is going or if it will go any where. So I'm just going to let it go, and not worry about it and keep my options open. As soon as I officially made this decision about B, he started texting me everyday at some point in the day. I really don't know what to make of it. Unless he is psychic and could see what my decision was. 

Another potential guy I will be meeting, along with a few other single classmates, is a friend of my classmate A. He is coming into to town to visit her for the weekend and she invited all of us out to the bars to meet him. Her post said something along the lines that he is cute and single and there are plenty of single girls in the program he should meet. I offered to be the wing woman for one of my friends, as she is more interested in a relationship than I am at this moment. 

Although there is this other guy who I have been talking to for about 6 months or so. We met on some random chat room site and shared skype names and have been talking about our super busy lives ever since. I have no idea what he looks like as we have never video chatted or exchanged pictures. I know that I enjoy talking to him and we have a lot in common as well as a lot of different interests. The weird thing is, last night I found out he will be within an hour away from me. Its weird how close he will be, but we still haven't talked about ever meeting. Who knows if this will ever be considered as more than just an anonymous friendship. 

So one more update, guy unrelated. I found a cool running program online this morning that will help me get up to running for a half hour within four weeks. This makes me excited as I am training for a Color Run. I also want to do several other 5K races, so this will help. I miss running. I am also coupon clipping healthy food coupons to help me save money at the same time as eating well. 

Reviving Ophelia

Tonight I found a movie that I've seen only once and decided even though it went on past when I usually go to bed to stay up an watch it. "Reviving Ophelia" is about a young girl who is an abusive relationship, but doesn't realize how her boyfriend is manipulating her. No one listens to her cousin who tells the girls family about the abuse.

This movie makes me wonder how girls and women can be in abusive relationships. That they can let a  guy manipulate them so much that even if they are hit, they still stay with the guy. Is it a psychology thing or is poor self-esteem? I know it isn't only women in these types of relationships, men can also be in abusive relationships. Relationship types can go either way, gender doesn't matter. The abuser should not be able to blame their upbringing for their actions. Abusers can come from good homes or bad homes, and good people do come from bad homes.

I may have limited experience in the guy department, but I don't know if I could be one of those women. Since starting college, I have become so much more independent than I used to be. I worry about my friends that this is the relationship they will end up in. Maybe that is why I struggle to trust myself or guys. I don't want to end up in a relationship where there is abuse.

I remember my first year of college that my roommate read the book "Reviving Ophelia." She was all about supporting girls knowing their bodies and respecting themselves. To not abuse their body with eating disorders.

Even though I am officially obese, I would never abuse my body with bulimia or anorexia. I want to be healthy, even if that means I'm not a size two. Even if people think I am fat, I don't care, people are mean and hurtful. They hurt people to build themselves up.

I may not be the most confident person, I may not fully like myself, but I want to be happy and healthy. I will be respected in whatever relationship I end up in. I am too independent to let a guy push me around and abuse me. I am too proud to abuse my body.

For any of you readers out there who have been told they are fat or ugly. Don't listen to them. You are beautiful/handsome in your own way. Listen to your friends if they say you might be in an abusive relationship. If someone hits you, please report them. Love is not shown by hitting you. Please be careful.

Some Dreams and Some Goals

I randomly downloaded a free book on my kindle the other day and found that I loved it so much I bought the second book. I read both in a day and cannot wait until the third comes out. I went to the writers website and found that she had started writing these books as a project during the November writers thing that happens every year. I sadly have never participated in this as I've always been busy with school. But it inspired me to write a list of some dreams and goals I have.

Goal/Dream 1: I want to write a book. I don't care what kind of book. I just want to write a book. I've started several books, but I have never finished them because I find that I can't continue them. I want to finish one as soon as I am done with my Master's degree in a year.

Goal/Dream 2: I want to ride on a motorcycle. Not necessarily driving it myself, but I want to ride one. Not picky on type or brand or whatever.

Goal/Dream 3: To love myself. I don't have to like everything about myself...just a few more things. 

Goal/Dream 4: I want to fall in love. Fall in love and get married and start a family. I was almost in love once, but he pushed me out of his life after a few months of getting to know each other. It was heartbreaking, but I'm ready to find love.

Not sure what else other goals and dreams I have. I don't usually think about them too much.

Readers, what is one of your goals?