A nifty party that was the bees knees.

All dolled up. 

Just got home from a banquet with my ladies and other speechies. It was speakeasy themed. So to get ready for the night I decided to do finger waves and dress in '20s fashion. I went out and bought some fishnets, the stuff to do my hair, and a long strand of pearls. The girls decided I was the cats meow. LOL. Love the 1920s slang. I did some think gel eye liner as well as some red lipstick. It was fun to be dressed to the 9's.

I spent all morning watching videos of how to do the finger waves and even then I spent an hour trying to fall their instructions I came up with my own way of creating the finger waves. Now if only I could figure out how to make the shorter portion of my hair turn out as nicely. I would do it more often. Longest part once you figure out how to do it, is to let your hair dry. I used gel instead of the lotion or other suggestions. I just used basic metal hair styling clips. As combing forward first didn't work for me. I started by combing back, pinning the, combing forward, pinning, and repeat until I got down by my ears. Then I did the other side. But of course had trouble with that side as it was backwards to what I had already done.

I'm thinking this might be a good outfit to pull out for Halloween next year if I actually decide to go out on the town. I was a gypsy this past year at the campground.

Well it looks like the weather is going to be nice this coming weekend and week. I'm looking forward to running, relaxing, and working on my tan. So to everyone who reads this have a great weekend and coming week as I don't know if I'll have anything to post about until school starts in May.

Survival and Braveness

I SURVIVED!!!!!

I made it through my first year of graduate school. YAY!!! After 2 weeks of limited sleep, one in-class exam, 2 take-homes, and 2 online exam, I am totally done!!!! It feels so good to be done with 2 semesters of graduate school and to know my fall off campus placement!! Yes, I finally found out what my fall part-time placement will be :) I will be in the local schools here. Not sure what age groups, but I'm excited. Now to get a good placement for the spring :)

To celebrate I am going to meet up with my classmates for a mini potluck and dancing at one of the local dance scenes. I have been to a smaller version of this club back in my hometown, but this one is huge. It will be fun. I made brownie-cookies, which are yummy. It should be fun.

I've been reading this really good blog on tumbler. It is about a girl who is also in grad school, but is working on her PhD. The funny thing is I feel like her sometimes. We have a lot of similarities, but also quite a few differences. But it is nice to read. This is the link to her first post. I've been reading from the beginning to her most recent posts. http://confessionsofasinglegradstudent.tumblr.com/post/35149157410/cute-smart-and-single  She posts a lot more often than I do. Makes me wonder if I'm slacking on the writing of this blog...hmmmm

So as camping season has begun, I now get the house to myself. Yeah, it sounds awesome, but it is rather lonely. And I also don't sleep that well, I kind of freak myself out a bit. I am really tempted to invite B over (the guy I like), but he doesn't really have the money to visit. He was able to get enough money for a trip back North.

So here is an quick, short update on B. I like him. Like a lot. And I told him...hence the braveness in the title. My plan was to send it right before I went to bed and log off and wait for his reply. Well that didn't work out. I sent it telling him how much I liked him and how I didn't want it to be a what if. I sat there for what seemed like an eternity waiting for a reply...it was only like 10 minutes or so. But he replied. He likes me too, but has things to figure out first, but is willing to figure them out with me. So we'll see how this goes....Hopefully it doesn't take too long to figure out.

We are still talking a lot, which makes me happy. Now that I finally told him that I like him, I have let myself truly feel my feelings for him. I'm not hiding them from myself or suppressing them. Makes me know that I was right about my feelings and that it was a good idea to tell him. Makes me wish I didn't live so many hours away from him, so that it was easier to visit each other.

I'll keep you random readers up to date. Everyone have a good rest of your week and weekend. I'm going to go buy that new wrap thing from McDonalds.

One Year Almost Done

Tomorrow is the beginning of finals week. I am currently making flash cards for my only in class exam as well as watching After|Words. After|Words is a documentary about aphasia and is a must watch movie to understand what people are experiencing. It reminds me of the individuals I worked with last semester. I have one in class exam for voice and for my other two classes there is an online portion and a case study portion. I will be done by Wednesday!!! YAY!!!

So one problem I'm experiencing right now is sleep. I can't fall asleep, I don't stay asleep, and I seem to toss and turn when I am staying asleep. It is making life difficult as all I want to do is take a nap and keep sleeping. It is getting annoying. Most likely it is from stress and my ever thinking mind. My mind doesn't stop. Confession: one thing I'm thinking about is telling my friend B that I like him. 

Yes I know in my last post that I didn't like B. I'm so focused on school that I push down feelings or doubt them. I've always doubted my feelings, which makes it hard to know what I feel. Right now my main problem is I don't know myself as well as I should and that my self-confidence is not the highest. I need to work on this, but I think talking to B will help. It would be a long distance relationship if he has similar feelings. He currently lives 3 hours away, but in the fall he will be further away for school. He makes me smile and makes me feel better. He helped me smile when C broke up with me. I found myself listening to his suggestions of what kind of movie to watch and his second choice of nail polish last night. It made me laugh. Confession: He is a great guy who I am nervous about at times that he won't feel the same way or that we are too different. My friends know why we are so different, and its not something I want to share with all of you random people online.

Last weekend was formal for my sorority and my brother's fraternity. So it was a long road trip up there for an epic weekend with some awesome people. I drove my friend L up, her roommate D up, and my brother up. It was a nice long 9 hour drive. There were so many laughs and good quotes from the weekend. "Hold me" "These girls not those girls" "Big and Meaty" I'm amazed my stomach didn't hurt from laughing so much. It was good to see my friends again. I got to try on my bridesmaid dress for my friend T's wedding. Had fun with my date M, who is taken by my friend K. I got lots of free drinks and kisses that night. I had fun until I started to get tired and couldn't deal with the crowds. I was glad to get away from the bars and walk to my brother's and B's fraternity house. I of course complained about the snow, but that was mostly because I was already cranky from dealing with crowds. It was nice seeing some of the alum at the house, but B could tell I was cranky so he gave me, L, and A a ride back to the hotel with a pit stop at Taco Bell. Food helped me get in a better mood. I did not sleep well that night as it was way too warm in the room. I don't like warm rooms. We didn't even go to bed that night until 5am on Sunday morning. L and I decided that D would drive home. He and my brother had some interesting conversations. I am so glad I have another year until the next formal.

Friday was a good day this past week. I spent the morning observing an orthodontist at the cleft clinic western puts on. I then spent an hour in the afternoon wine tasting with some of the girls from my program. That was so much fun. I bought a bottle of wine that I had never tried before. That evening I then went to see "Kiss Me, Kate" with different girls from class. It was just a great day of not studying.

I apologize for the random order of things. But I was just writing how it was organized in my mind. I will keep you all updated on how things with B go or don't go. Feel free to comment with any questions you have or name a topic you want me to talk about.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter to all of my readers!!! 

My hair right after I cut it the first time. 14 inches shorter. 

I was excited that I was able to finally spend an Easter with my family. It was a great weekend to spend with my family and a little bit of time with my brother's girlfriend. My weekend started after a great tour for potential students with amazing weather. My drive home was beautiful and the only thing that could have made it better was no slow people in front of me in areas where I couldn't pass. Confession: I used to be a slow poke driver but now I'm a speed demon at times. When I got back to my family's town, I went straight to my hairdresser to meet my mom and get my hair trimmed. It is so nice to have it back shorter again. I went almost two months without cutting it and it had grown about an inch which is a lot when it is as short as I have it now. 

I then followed my mom back to our house. I spent the first portion of the night trying to finish my room. My parents are planning on selling their house this summer, so I had to pack up my room. So when I had that basically done I went up and played some cards with my parents. The rest of the weekend was spent studying for an exam I have Monday morning and finishing packing. I also found some awesome Alpha Xi Delta stuff in Mt. Pleasant thanks to my brother and his girlfriend. For just over $20 I bought a huge Alpha Xi Delta blanket, a bag, a sock monkey wearing a sweatshirt with AXiD on it, and a car decal with BetXi bear on it. (pictures when it lets me)

It was a great weekend. 

So I mentioned in my last post that I thought I liked my friend B. Well after hanging out with him at my work banquet, there were no butterflies or any other feelings. So no future boyfriend anytime soon. Which is actually a good thing. I am currently super busy with life and not able to find time to actually have a boyfriend or meet someone. I'm so used to being single that it works for me. Besides, I plan on moving to Tennessee or the UP when I graduate next year. Why would I want to start a relationship with someone who wants to move somewhere that I don't. 

So in other news. I recently signed up for the Color Run this summer. I'm super excited and working on getting in shape for it, even though it isn't until August. It will be awesome. I also colored my hair Darkest Violet. It looks awesome. Hopefully after this long week of papers, an exam, and a presentation, I will get to see my friend L from my pledge class. She plans on coming to hangout with me for at least one night and day. YAY!!!

Lazy and Exhausted

So sorry for letting so long go without a post. As the title suggest I am lazy and exhausted, but sadly I've also been rather busy. I gave up on like everything in the last post, the no TV, the reading the bible everyday , so on. I'm too lazy and TV is how I de-stress after a long day at school. So lets see since my last post I had an awesome Valentines Day with my awesome friend H who did her undergrad with me and is doing her grad here in audiology, I hung out with one of my best (and only) guy friends B (confession: I am pretty sure I like B, but I am horrible at knowing my own feelings, see more later in post), went on spring break, and just had a pretty good St. Patty's day. I have decide I will most likely grow out my hair as I can't afford to cut it every month and I really want long hair whenever I get married. Whenever that happy day may or may not occur.

So before I talk about all of that awesomeness I should explain how lazy and exhausted I am lately. I am so lazy that I have had time to workout and instead I just sit and watch TV because I'm so exhausted. I know, I know, working out should help with the exhaustion, but then again I'm lazy. But I hate the weight I have put on and need to loose 50 lbs. So other than working out, I am also going to do my best to cut gluten and dairy out of my diet (my stomach has been unhappy and painful lately). So now for the fun stuff.

So Valentine's day was on a clinic day this year. So started it with head start in the morning, which is always fun. I love those kids. Two of the ones I am monitoring "did" my hair and make-up on Thursday in the dramatic play center. So after head start I headed to clinic to work for a little bit. H and I had planned to get lunch at B-dubs. It was yummy and we ran into my classmates B and K (different B than the guy B, I'm not good at distinguishing sometimes). I then returned to work/clinic for the rest of the day. Got some work hours in and my ESL client didn't show up (sort of as usual, first of 4 sessions in a row that they missed). After clinic was over H and I went to see Beautiful Creatures  and then had our usual Glee night. From my parents and grammy I got an awesome 31 bag and 3 sock monkeys. I have a weird obsession with sock monkeys. I also bought myself flowers and a rose plant (which is basically dead). Overall one of the best single Valentine's I've had since high school.

Right before spring break, basically the first official day of break, I drove 3 hours to see my guy friend B for the day. We hung out, took care of his farm animals, I cuddled with his dogs and guinea pig, he took me out to dinner, and we went bowling for about 3 hours. It was fun and nice to just hang out. We flirted a little and picked on each other. He tried to help me with my bowling game, but it seemed to just make it worse, or my arm was just getting tired from the ball that was too heavy. I didn't leave his place until 10:30 (which was when I was supposed to arrive at my friend H's {from high school} apartment). I got to her place at 12ish. Overall a great start to break.

When I got to H's apartment we talked guys as she finished packing, we didn't get to bed until 1:30. It was nice to catch up and have some girl talk time. We left her place around 8am the next day and hit the road for North Carolina to see our friend S. We hadn't seen her since August at her going away party. The week was so much fun. We did way too much shopping, saw Silver Lining Playbook, started watching the awesome show Dr. Who (the new seasons), and just had awesome girl time. I worked out 3x while there, which is more than I have since early January. It was fun and I got to go to Tennessee where I potentially might move in a year, unless something changes my mind...hint hint.

So today was St. Patty's day, and I had a pretty good day. I went to church for the first time in 3 weeks it was nice  to be back. I then met up with H (the first one mentioned) to see The Great and Powerful Oz, study time at Biggby, and dinner at Steak and Shake. It was nice to catch up with here, even though we saw each other Friday...lol. We're canceling Glee night this week as I am going home for the weekend. I have a "date" or date, don't know which yet. My employee recognition banquet for my summer job is on Friday and I asked my guy friend B to be my date and he said yet. Its country themed and he is excited to go ( I hope). I'm also hoping to try to initiate a kiss, hopefully he doesn't have the same plan lol.

So I think I'm all caught up on life and the craziness. So much studying and wishing it wasn't freezing cold. I'm tired of cold and snow and cold. I'm also tired of being exhausted all the time, I don't think I'm sleeping well again and I don't know why. I don't feel stressed or anything, so maybe I can figure it out soon.

I am wondering how many people actually read these blogs. I also wonder if anyone I talk about reads these. If so, B will know I think I like him...oh yeah why I don't know I'll try to explain tomorrow or in my next post. Like I've said I'm too lazy exhausted to do it now. So to get where I was going before I distracted myself. If you are reading this, please make one comment. I just kind of want to know how many people are reading these. You don't need to leave a name or anything. I'll most likely keep posting even if no one comments. 

Good night all you anonymous people out there.  

Trying Something New

So to go along with my last post about change. I signed up for this Intense Discipleship Program at my church. Confession: I am a Christian. I know that this may not totally be apparent unless you read about me meeting my ex-bf on ChristianMingle. But yes I am a Christian and I am proud of it. I don't go around "shoving it down throats" or yelling it out loud, but I do my best to live the life that God and Jesus have directed me to live. I try to be non-judgmental as it is said "He who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her" John 8:7 (NASB). This may not be the exact same version that most people learn, but it gets the point across, and it is the version of the bible I have sitting next to me.

I have just finished my first Daily Devotion of the program and the reading was Acts 18. The verse that  stood out for me today is the reason I am posting this blog. I think even though this is about my graduate life that I am going to also share my life as Christ is directing it as that is part of my graduate life. If this offends any of you I am sorry, but this is is who I am. I am sharing my faith as the verse that "spoke" to me told me to do. In Acts 18:9-10 "And the Lord said to Paul in the night by a vision, "Do not be afraid any longer, but go on speaking and do not be silent; for I am with you, and no man will attack you in order to harm you, for I have many people in this city." These verses told me that I should not be afraid to share my faith as the Lord is with me. So that is what I am doing.

So just so that those of you who read this and those I talk to (the 1 or 2 of you) I will give you a heads up of what the "requirements" are for this program. I must attend class every week (Confession: sadly I will be breaking this rule in a few weeks, resulting in my "dropping" the class. I will be on spring break and have had these plans for months, so not canceling them.). I must attend church every Sunday and sit as close to the front as I can (Confession: blech, I like my back row seat, I do not want to sit near the front, but the pastor knows I'm doing the program). Daily Devotions and 10 minutes of distraction free, outloud prayer (Confession: the only time I talk to God outloud is when I'm having very random conversations with him or sometimes just ranting. I guess prayer is just talking to God so this part shouldn't be to hard, except that 10 minutes is a long time.) I have to listen to Faithbuilders on CDs, for this first week I have to listen to 2 cds and then write about them for a quiz I will be taking each class. Memorization of verses which isn't too hard for me, especially because one of the verses I am learning this first week is one of my favorites: Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." Don't know the exact version of the bible, but will figure that out before Sunday. Next I have to serve in a ministry at my church each week which. isn't too bad. I have to love people and be kind and encouraging...I do this anyways and do my best to not be "mean". I also have to be an example of God's love, again I try to do this already. If I've been mean to any of my readers, I apologize and hope you can forgive me for what I did to you. But I do not apologize for sharing my faith if that is what I have done to you. Some other random ones things that I need to do and isn't too hard for me.

Now for the kicker in which both R who lives with me and my mom asked if I had joined a cult. I know they sound crazy and I'm already going crazy from. Limit media (TV, internet, books, magazines, video games, phone apps, etc.) to 2 hours A WEEK unless it is work or school related. This is only two hours a week, I watch at least 5 hours of TV a week and spend way more of that online doing random things...:( I am going to struggle without watching all of my tv shows. I also cannot listen to secular music (which means no country for the next 4 weeks...dying), no movie theaters (dying again....so many good movies out), only appropriate movies and video games. And the last one in which any college student of any level will gasp and yell "BLASPHEMY"  at is no alcohol. No bars for me as I cannot drink or listen to the music. Might not follow this as I will be on spring break and I'm already dropping the course for spring break, so oh well.

So for those of you who think I am crazy...I am using this as a social experiment as well as a way to get closer to God. There is music other than country (gasp) and I already hardly drink...but now that bottle of wine on the counter looks really good. I can do this for hopefully three weeks is my goal, maybe 2.

Wish me good Luck....and pray for me if you believe in it.

New Changes

Asymmetrical right side

I feel like I've been in a rut lately, and so does my friend K. Usually I just dye my hair and that is enough...I did that in December and it did not help at all. I don't know why it didn't work this time, but it didn't. So I decided during the Super Bowl that I was going to cut all of my hair off, and spent the game trying on hairstyles online. I finally found one I liked and cut off about 14 inches to donate. I know have a sassy, sexy pixie cut. Woo hooo :) See the awesome pictures. Conffesion: first time putting pictures up on my blog..... Today my hair is sort of in a punky look, which is awesome.

Asymmetrical left side

I sort of feel like a new me. It isn't totally a new me, but it is enough that I had a confidence boost Thursday and Friday when my classmates and teachers saw the new cut. Lots of compliments and it seems as everyone loves it!!! Which is yet another confidence boost. Confession: I have a somewhat low self esteem, even though there is no real reason for it. So with these confidence boosts, my self-esteem seems to be growing, slowly.

Wondering what this new haircut will bring.....*pondering*

To my readers: Have you ever really needed a change from your life? What did you do to make that change?



I apologize for the short post, but currently don't have much to write about.