Holidays are over and School is started

Well the holidays are over. I'm hoping all of my readers had a good Christmas and New Years, and whatever other holidays you all celebrate at this time of the year. I had a great time with my family and got to say good by to my coworkers at the job I have been working at for the past 5 1/2 years. I got some amazing presents from my family to help me start having a full functional kitchen; a new crockpot, tupperware, and items my grammy doesn't need anymore like a roasting pan and a glass pie plate.

Classes were supposed to start Monday, but due to extreme temperatures and a storm classes were canceled Monday and Tuesday. So I had to wait until Wednesday to start my Internship. Which of course is amazing. I love it already. The patients are already getting used to me. I have done several evals and started picking up therapy. There have been some sad parts already too, but those I rather not right about. I have today off from my internship because my supervisor already had it planned to be off.

So what have I done with my days off? I have been studying for the Praxis. I have just a week left until I take it. The Praxis is a test that many professionals take before certification or to be licensed. I am taking the SLP version of it and I really hope to pass. I have been studying constantly since New Years. Last night was the first day I did not study. I just needed one night of a break and that was it. The next three days will be spent studying and taking practice tests. I barely passed the first test I took, and I also was able to finish it in about an hour (the time limit is two hours).

Well I think that is about it for updates for now. I know I'm really bad at doing updates. I will work on that.

TTFN, ta ta for now.

Happy Thanksgiving

Well it is Thanksgiving day and I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. It is snowing heavily here and we have almost an inch of snow so far today and are expecting more. It is just small flakes, but constant and it is making everything look beautiful. I am hoping that this winter I will actually be able to make a snowman at my boyfriend's and my future house as I will be moving in with him officially in the near future :)
Last year's weather was so sad that I did not have a chance to build a snowman.

My parents made another delicious meal this year. A nice turkey breast in the crockpot, black olives, mashed potatoes, rolls, green beans, and then foods I don't care for (cranberry sauce and stuffing). Then apple and pumpkin pies with whipped cream. Deliciousness.

We are starting shopping a little tonight and more tomorrow morning. I have my list in hand for a few last minute present ideas, I hope to get.

Last night I got to see some good friends who I rarely get to see as we now live all over the place. It was so nice to see them again. I also got to meet some new people. I get to see one of them and their boyfriend on Saturday for a double date.

My boyfriend is slowly meeting my friends and family, which is really nice. He has already met one of my best friends as well as my brother and parents. Saturday he will meet my Grammy and my aunt, uncle and baby cousin. Then he will meet one friend and her boyfriend Saturday night, and another Sunday afternoon for lunch. We are progressing in our relationship, which is really nice.  Lots of changes but good ones actually great ones.

What is everyone thankful for this year?

Getting Healthy and Other Random Stuff

So its been a while since I've posted. To be exact its been a month since I've posted. In that time the following has happened:

1. I said I love you. 
2. I have been working with more and more groups at my internship
3. I have a new job
4. I had an interview for a spring placement with another interview next week
5. I have taken a test
6. I have visited my family several times
7. My brother moved to the UP for work
8. Researched the Praxis

And much more. 

Recently though, my boyfriend, J, and I have decided to become healthier. We both have gained weight in the previous years to meeting each other and both want to lose a little. We both have our goals. He wants to be back to where he was a year ago. I want to be at a healthy weight for my height and back to a weight/size I haven't been since high school. Its hard to be healthy with always studying or working or wanting to sleep. Its easy to just grab something quick to eat rather than to cook something healthy to eat. 

Luckily my boyfriend and I have started to cook meals together to try to stay healthy. We also plan to cut back on portions, plan our meals ahead of time, and to walk everyday we are together as long as the weather isn't bad. On the days we are apart we plan on working out on our own. He wants to start running again. I can only dream of running again as past injuries continue to haunt and ruin my ability to even run a half mile without being in pain for several days to over a week after a run. So due to these injuries, I will stick with walking, Zumba, and Wii related fitness things. 

I will most likely create an award system for myself for exercising a certain amount of days in a row and for losing certain amounts of weight. Shoes, books, and movies sound like good rewards to me...also maybe more wii exercise games as they are always fun. I will research getting in shape and maybe take some before and after pics to help encourage myself. My goal is to look awesome at my friend T's wedding in June. I have more than half a year to lose some weight and look awesome. 

So I will do my best to try to keep you all updated on my goals and weight loss. If you have any tips or want tips that I am using feel free to comment below. 

Is it Love?

So last time I wrote about the amazing J. Well since that post we are now officially dating. So for facebook we have been official for two weeks, but for our own feelings we have been dating for a month and a half. We try to spend as much time as we can together, but it is hard when I had things planned before I met him, but now I have time. Every time we are trying to decide what to do, he wants to come up with new ideas. He doesn't want me to get bored. I just have to keep reminding him some days that I'm tired and I'm happy to just spend the time with him cuddling and watching movies. He makes me feel so special when I am with him. My stomach still does flips sometimes, but otherwise I'm just happy looking into his eyes and smiling. I can't seem to stop smiling.

So with all of these amazing feelings floating around, I've been trying to figure out if I'm in love and ready to say those 3 scary but amazing words, or if I should wait until it just comes out when I am ready to say it. I just don't know what love feels to me, so I have been asking people how they knew.

1. I asked my parents, and both being ridiculous, I got basically the same answer, "We are?" Not helpful, but they did tell me I would know when it was the right time. And that once we are in love that it takes work to keep the love going. 
2. I asked my friend L. She said that both her and her bf had never said it before, but that they knew within a month of dating that it was time to say it. That she wants to spend a lot of time with him and cares for him deeply. 
3. I asked my friend T last night how she knew and this is what she texted me: "I think I really fell when I realized that he was my best friend the only one that would be there in a heart beat. he made me tingle and just feel safe. He didn't care about the drama in my life n saved me from it. I don't know exactly what your looking for but when you're ready you'll know it. You could fall in love with a look, a touch, a hug. Its how that makes you feel. Do you feel safe with him, can you trust him, will he be there for you no matter what. And the big one, can you see a future."

With some many different ways to feel love, I just don't want to make a mistake. But at this moment I cannot see myself with anyone else. I see good looking guys go by and I don't even really pay attention anymore. I can see a future with J, we have even talked about it. 

I have warned him about my past and how I can be sometimes. And from his responses I know that I can trust him and don't want to lose him. He doesn't want to rush me, but he also can't help how he feels. From a text last night, I am pretty sure he is ready to say those three words, but is waiting until I am ready to hear or say them. I just don't want to hurt him, but I at this moment cannot see myself without him. 

So if I say those three little words the next time I see him or further a long, we shall see. But for now I am going to enjoy my happiness and the feeling of enjoying my time with him. 

The Amazing J

I am a super happy girl right now. I met a super awesome guy who I will call J. We met about a month ago on an online dating site that I joined thinks to my friend L. After I read through his profile I decided what the heck why not send him a message asking him a question. So I sent him a question about his dog that he had mentioned in his profile and ever since we have been texting for hours every day.  The funny part is he didn't respond right away to my message not thinking it would turn into anything. He also asked if I was real for the first couple days as I liked some of the same shows and such as him.

We have now gone on two awesome dates and have more planned.

The first date was a putt putting and dinner date. He won at putt putting (even though people told him to let me win). I was so shocked on how easy it came to talking to him and how quickly time flew as we talked. 4 hours later I had to say good bye so that I could get sleep before class the next day (it was finals week).

The second date was yesterday and lasted a marvelous 13 hours. He picked me up in the morning to go the zoo and we spend a couple hours walking around, looking at the animals, feeding giraffes, and talking. Then we went to dunch and talked there for a couple hours. Lastly we went back to my place and watched movies and talked for hours throughout the movies. We just talked and joked and laughed and enjoyed each others company.

I am just so happy right now. He makes my days better, and my time apart from him fly. I cannot wait to see him again when I go back to the town we both live in as right now I am home at my parents working while on break.

So that is it for this update, talk to you all another time.

New Hope

So in honor of an awesome guy I just met, we'll call him J ( I hope I don't have any other J's in this blog, I should keep track of what I name people). Today while texting J he made a Star Wars pun about New Hope, which was pretty awesome. I'll get to talking about him in a little bit.

So I'm already half way through my second summer semester. It is crazy how fast this semester is going. I have only seen my clients one or two times, which is very sad. I am excited because I am working with some new types of clients, which is a great experience. I have clinic supervisors I have also never worked with, which also makes it interesting. One is brand new to the clinic, so she is still getting the hang of things. Classes are a challenge as they are trying to fit a full regular semester of information into a few short weeks. It is kicking my butt with all of the work.

So the last time I wrote I mentioned I was going to release the inner lioness. I did and I asked B two very important questions. The first one left me still confused, but less so than prior to asking the question. The second question left me a little disappointed, but ready to figure things out for myself. I see that it wasn't meant to happen, but that gave me a chance to explore and open myself up for new things (I will be talking about J soon).

So this past weekend I went to visit my family. It was so nice and relaxing and interesting. I got there Friday afternoon after class and relaxed. My mom was at the pool so I worked on some homework until she showed up, and then we both took naps. I sure get lots of naps when I visit my family. So one thing that is a problem when I visit my family is that there are not enough beds for me to have one. I have slept on air mattresses in the kitchen ever since my parents got their fifth wheel. I happen to have bad luck with air mattresses. For some reason they always leak and I end up on a flat mattress. My parents bought be a brand new one for this past weekend and the second night of laying on it, it was completely flat within 1.5 to 2 hours. I was a very unhappy camper. Saturday morning with my family I tried golfing for the first time. It was a golf scramble with others from the campground, so luckily you got to take a shot from wherever the best ball was. I was super excited whenever we used mine. It is definitely a challenge when you are 5'3ish and have to rent women's clubs that happen to be way too tall for you, but I managed. My family team happened to come in last, but we had fun. It was also pretty awesome that I didn't get carded at all on Saturday at dinner or the golf course. The sad part was that when I ordered my favorite drink, a screwdriver, I had to tell the kid bartender what was in it. He gave me the blankest stare when I told him what I wanted. He needs a lot of training. Saturday night my family went out to dinner and then my brother and I went to see Despicable Me 2!! It was my second time going to see it. I love the movie!!!! It is so funny and so much adult humor!!! Sunday I went with my parents to their church which is brand new, meets once a month, and is in a movie theater. It is pretty cool.

So now that I think I am mostly caught up, I can talk about J. So I recently, only a couple days ago, met J online on a dating website. I only joined it because my friend L suggested it and was having success. I just decided to give it a try to see if there might be some guy on there to meet. So I decided to create a full profile and started letting my inner "lioness" out some more and messaged guys first instead of waiting for them. So I messaged this guy J because we had some things in common and I though why not. We have been messaging since then. Used to be we only messaged on the site and it was often hours apart, but last night we exchanged numbers. Today we have been texting all afternoon and evening. It is fun. We have talked about so many things, including Star Wars, which is why I have the
name for this post as New Hope. For some reason he thinks I am pretty awesome, which is awesome in its self.

So I thought I'd share some cuteness for all of you to make you smile. 

This is my 1 month old 1st cousin. Isn't he just adorable?

Confusion and Birthdays

I made a trip to see B a few weeks ago. It was a good weekend of relaxing and hanging out. The one problem, I panicked and didn't ask him if he was interested in me as more than a friend or if he just liked to flirt with me. I like him, but I'm too good at protecting myself from getting hurt. I don't let myself feel or I don't take chances. But I have declared I am going to take a chance. I am going to ask him about how he feels and if I even have a chance. Also tell him if he wants to be my date at a wedding I'm in, I want him to be my boyfriend first. As my friend A says, "Let the lioness out." Where that lioness is, I have no idea. But I will find her.

My birthday was awesome. I got to spend it with my brother, his girlfriend, and my parents. It was nice. I also got to go to a baseball game.

Why am I so scared of giving guys a chance?