What do I want?

I've been thinking lately...I considered going back on Christian Mingle, but then decided not to. Most of what is next is jut one big confession.  I think that I'm not ready for it. I told my friend K that I don't know what I want. I know that I have a lot to give, but no one special to give it to. For now it is given to my friends and family, and I guess for now that is enough. I just feel lonely a lot lately. I was thinking today that I have all of the love, but I don't know if I am fully ready to give it to one guy. My mom and I have talked and I'm finding I am a lot more independent than I thought. I'm not ready to share my life with someone. It's just hard at this time of year with Valentine's Day right around the corner. I have plans with my friend H, but this is yet another year that I will be single on this "romantic" day. I even feel like I'm becoming a bitter woman on the inside, even though I have no reason to be bitter.

I am looking forward to the future. It is so bright and full and promising. I'm hoping that I'll be able to move to Tennessee like I feel drawn to. My hope is that this is where God is sending me and is part of his plan. I've considered leaving Michigan for somewhere new, but now I'm feeling the pull to Tennessee and a specific region of Tennessee. Luckily I still have over a year to figure that out, right now I'm just trying to figure out where I want to do my off campus placements for fall and spring semester.

Another thing I was thinking about today is every once in a while showcasing some of my favorite recipes that I have found and been making. There are so many and I'm not starting tonight, but I will start on my next post.

Another note to my readers, I really don't know if it is worth writing. So if you enjoy them and want me to write about something special leave me a comment.